Just Dealing

I guess you could say that I have never dealt with things in my life well. When the stress has gotten too strong, I just throw something more on my plate, making it so that the balance is just more out of control. I suppose that one day I will learn this careful balance of stress and life. Or perhaps, I have already begun.
The beginning of this semester took a huge toll on me, mentally, physically and emotionally. It has been a hard time of the year for me, seeing as it reminds me of my dad, but to add on three extra extracurriculars, and a full eighteen credit load, plus working in the lab...I realized, after having a headache everyday of the semester, that I just could not do it. I was pushing myself too hard, and was even finding myself hoping to injure myself so I wouldn't feel guilty skipping frisbee. So when all of this hit me, and I just couldn't handle it, I took a break.
So where am I now? Finding myself in a happier place, as I took away a class, and have just a little more time to go to disneyland, and love the people around me. I am back to doing the things I love, and have started to realize that while I care about others, I can't worry about the things I cannot change. Perhaps this isn't revolutionary to anyone else, but it has set my mind at ease, and has made me happier. Anyways, I am going to go enjoy a little more free time, but I love you all, and keep smiling, things will get better. In the words of Aubri "*Muah*"